part one: the drama before going home

so i have to admit that the last few days have been pretty busy. i spent most of last week writing three papers and i finally had the opportunity to turn them all in by friday. it was a pretty busy week needless to say.
this week there are four papers that i have to write. one is due on monday, the rest are due on tuesday. the only good news about this week is that i don't have spanish class anymore, but the bad news is that i have the spanish oral exam this tuesday at 7:15 in the evening. it really blows.
it is odd to think that by this time next week my parents and my little brother will be on their way out here to get me. then we shall go home, and i shall slave away all summer long. . . doing what though, that is the real question. here are some reasons why i should go home
reason number a: i seem to have this thing for a guy i used to date, the only problem is that he's dating my roommate. yeah, i still don't know what i'm going to do about it, but one of the funniest quotes i've heard about how a person feels about this situation is that the deepest circle of hell is reserved for betrayers, and mutineers. i don't approve of the relationship because i don't think that they took everyone's feelings into account. i don't think that they thought about how their relationship would change the dynamics of our apartment, and his apartment, but oh well.
reason number b: it is time for me to go home, to not have to pay rent, and to see my family again. they are really great people, my family, and i'm rather attached to them. i'm not saying that some people aren't as good as family, i'm just saying that i miss my family.
reason number c: . . . uh, yeah i can only think of two reasons as to why i should go home. i can't change my mind though, and i know that i should go, but why? what am i supposed to do or learn?
so i feel as though there is this other guy in my life, who is in need of a fallback. . . and i think that he keeps coming over here because he can't get the girl that he likes, so he tries for the next best thing. . . and i keep turning him down. yeah, i'm not down with that, i shouldn't be the person that other people settle for, i should be the one that they like, and not the one that they always think that they have.
well, mi amigos, i have church tomorrow at a very early hour, and my head hurts from lack of sleep, but i will keep you posted, and i shall try to post everyday, even when i have to write four papers and take two quizzes for my classes. peace out!