so it has been forever since i last posted. i decided that i would try and post every day if i can. i know that i'll be able to post tomorrow because i'll be at work all day, but thursday and the rest of the week, and probably next week will be really hard to post things for. but for now, i guess that i can give you all an update on life.
to kick things off my grandpa is dying. i found out yesterday, and so my family is all coming out here, and then we're going up to montana to see him, and to be there for the funeral. the cool part about it is that my entire family hasn't been together in five years. yeah i know, i graduated high school and no family came for that, so this is pretty big. so i think that i'm leaving town either thursday or friday. i don't know when i'll get back yet, but it sounds like i'll probably be gone until next saturday or something like that.
my roomate, elizabeth, is leaving on thursday as well. she's going to colorado and from there iowa, and from there she's going to serve her mission in brazil. we've been friends since we were twelve. it was always lots of fun to see her over the summer, and to be her roomate in college. life will be different without elizabeth. i kinda don't know what to do, but i know that i'll keep going.
yeah, that's about all that i got right now. i don't really know why i called this blog welcome back old friend, but oh well. shout out to all the chatfields and flanagans and allisons! i miss you all and can't wait to see you!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
happiness for the day
today was a pretty chill day. nothing unusual happened. i went to my classes and did all that i was supposed to. i even did my homework while at work, so i'm all set for my classes on wednesday. i did the homework for tuesday last thursday.
i think the suckiest part of my day is the fact that i have a sore bottom. i was walking down my sister's driveway to get into my brother's car when i wiped out hard. i laughed it off, but today i have this huge bruise and it hurts to sit down. dangit! talk about bad timing.
i have to admit though i feel pretty good about life right now. there are a few minor concerns, but nothing to large anymore. we'll start with the first.
i thought for a while there at elizabeth's and my friendship might be slowly falling apart. what with her disagree with the old boyfriends and people who bring it to her attention thing, times were getting tough. she didn't like talking to me there for a while. we talked last night though, and it was amazing. she actually told me how things were going instead of just hoping that i knew what was going down. i know that even though she is still in denial, she's gonna make it through, and be happier in the end.
so that makes me happier. i feel kind of tired right now, but i still have an hour left at work. i'm sure i could find some sort of project that could be worked on. but until then.
this is roxy!
i think the suckiest part of my day is the fact that i have a sore bottom. i was walking down my sister's driveway to get into my brother's car when i wiped out hard. i laughed it off, but today i have this huge bruise and it hurts to sit down. dangit! talk about bad timing.
i have to admit though i feel pretty good about life right now. there are a few minor concerns, but nothing to large anymore. we'll start with the first.
i thought for a while there at elizabeth's and my friendship might be slowly falling apart. what with her disagree with the old boyfriends and people who bring it to her attention thing, times were getting tough. she didn't like talking to me there for a while. we talked last night though, and it was amazing. she actually told me how things were going instead of just hoping that i knew what was going down. i know that even though she is still in denial, she's gonna make it through, and be happier in the end.
so that makes me happier. i feel kind of tired right now, but i still have an hour left at work. i'm sure i could find some sort of project that could be worked on. but until then.
this is roxy!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
joe madness and stadium nostalgia
so joe and i text everyday usually for a couple of hours. we talk about lots of nonsense things. it helps to pass the time. i actually hung out with him yesterday. i titled this joe madness in both senses of the phrase.
lets examine this madness as anger first. you know my earlier qualms about joe and how he treats me. he treats me really nice, and we spend lots of time together, but, i admit that at the end of hanging out with him i wanna punch something, or at least shout out profanity. he is one of my friends though, and i do enjoy seeing him, i just wish that he realized what was going on. first of all, he's getting married, and his fiance is 2,000+ miles away. it's not fair to her to not tell her that we hang out all the time, and it's not fair to me knowing that he doesn't tell her that, or that we do hang out. i'm not without blame here myself, i know that, but i thought that i would just let you all in on the secret. i suppose this is where i get into the crazy sort of madness. it's not as though i still like joe, that ended a while ago.
things will change when he gets married though, and he has to come to the realization that he's chosen his best friend for life, the person that he's going to spend the rest of his life with, and it isn't me, and i'm just fine with that. and even though i am still here, i can't ever be on the same level of friendship as him and his spouse are. it's what happened when the rest of my family members have gotten married. i'm no longer their confidant, or i am, but not to the same degree as before.
i suppose that i should feel relieved about this, knowing that sooner or later, joe will stop telling me all his secrets, and then i don't know what kind of friendship we'll have. it will be the same, but not really. like i said, madness in both senses right:)
as for the stadium of nostalgia, i had to go to the stadium last night. i was going for university band. fred made me the section leader, and as i was walking up to the stadium, i had a brief instant of nostalgia. all i could think of was sunny days at band camp, football season, afternoon rehearsals, great friendships, and just all around awesomeness!
until later though, i'm signing off! remember that i love you all, and don't forget to be awesome!
lets examine this madness as anger first. you know my earlier qualms about joe and how he treats me. he treats me really nice, and we spend lots of time together, but, i admit that at the end of hanging out with him i wanna punch something, or at least shout out profanity. he is one of my friends though, and i do enjoy seeing him, i just wish that he realized what was going on. first of all, he's getting married, and his fiance is 2,000+ miles away. it's not fair to her to not tell her that we hang out all the time, and it's not fair to me knowing that he doesn't tell her that, or that we do hang out. i'm not without blame here myself, i know that, but i thought that i would just let you all in on the secret. i suppose this is where i get into the crazy sort of madness. it's not as though i still like joe, that ended a while ago.
things will change when he gets married though, and he has to come to the realization that he's chosen his best friend for life, the person that he's going to spend the rest of his life with, and it isn't me, and i'm just fine with that. and even though i am still here, i can't ever be on the same level of friendship as him and his spouse are. it's what happened when the rest of my family members have gotten married. i'm no longer their confidant, or i am, but not to the same degree as before.
i suppose that i should feel relieved about this, knowing that sooner or later, joe will stop telling me all his secrets, and then i don't know what kind of friendship we'll have. it will be the same, but not really. like i said, madness in both senses right:)
as for the stadium of nostalgia, i had to go to the stadium last night. i was going for university band. fred made me the section leader, and as i was walking up to the stadium, i had a brief instant of nostalgia. all i could think of was sunny days at band camp, football season, afternoon rehearsals, great friendships, and just all around awesomeness!
until later though, i'm signing off! remember that i love you all, and don't forget to be awesome!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
nothing new today
so i have to admit that today was pretty uneventful. classes were okay and work was okay. i still have band later tonight, so i'm going to chill up on campus and eat my dinner and play the piano. i didn't feel like doing homework today at work so i didn't. i decided to read a book for fun.
shout out to everyone!!! i hope that your days were full of awesome!!! i'll write more tomorrow with something a little more interesting!!
shout out to everyone!!! i hope that your days were full of awesome!!! i'll write more tomorrow with something a little more interesting!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
the trampoline adventure
so last friday i went on a date with a guy named tyler. he's on the cymbal line here at byu and it was lots of fun. i think that i need a short disclaimer though in front of it all. i have a fear of trampolines and flying through the air and doing flips and what not. i usually injure myself really badly on a trampoline so was kind of scared out of my wits for half the night.
so first off, we went to dinner at tgi Friday's. it's the first time that i've ever been there and it was pretty good. there were the usual questions about family and majors and what not, and then we talked about drumline and how we should take over next year. when we were done we went back to the riviera.
at the riv we played two games of pingpong. i must admit that i thought of julie and dt, and totally getting my trash kicked by people lik tim and red head ben. it was great in that sense. i was a little off my game in the beginning, so i lost the first game, but i came back strong and won the second game. yes!!
after that we gathered together in a group of 25-30 people so we could go to the tumbling gym between provo and springville. it was lots of fun there. i jumped into the foam pit a couple of times, and jumped around on the trampoline without injuring my self. i couldn't jump from the trampoline to the foam pit though, that was just asking too much from me. this was the first time that i've been around a trampoline in 4 or 5 years, and to have made it that far without getting hurt, i thought, was pushing my luck.
after that we went back to his apartment and played rock band for maybe half an hour, and then we decided to go to ihop. it was around 1 in the morning now, and so we went to ihop until around 3 in the morning, and then i finally made it home. it was way fun and i enjoyed it.
when i got home bre, one of my roomies, tells me that she and john, an old fhe dad, are engaged. i admit that i screamed YES many times and hopped around in a circle shouting it. it was great.
so, all in all, i would say that it was a pretty full weekend. but now we're back to the school week. nothing really happened today. i wish that i could have slept in but i didn't have the time to in the morning so i've been up for a long period of time. i'm excited to go home and see the roomies, and to chill and think of nothing for a while.
my goals for this week are to start working on my mad guitar skills so i can get better and better. i also plan on working on drumming. it should be fun. sweet! peace out kids.
wait- i forgot the most awkward moment of the weekend. it was linger longer last night and was sitting on the couch by myself, because i just like to chill, and feeling maybe a little anti social when this guy named lowell comes up and sits next to me. we talked for a short amount of time, and we ran out of things to talk about so it got awkward really fast. i couldn't leave, but he wouldn't leave so i was just sitting there listening to him talk about the picture on the wall when i noticed that a lot of people in the room were looking and pointing at me. i felt way uncomfortable, but i just sat there and tried to make relevant comments to him.
after he was gone and i was sitting and talking with mark, bryan, and bryce(huge group of guys, i know, but all of them are taken) someone came over and explained what all the staring was about. they made the comment that i looked uncomfortable and was looking for an escape earlier. i said you were right! we all had a good laugh about it. so now, that's the end, and peace out for reals this time! shout out to jack and jett!
so first off, we went to dinner at tgi Friday's. it's the first time that i've ever been there and it was pretty good. there were the usual questions about family and majors and what not, and then we talked about drumline and how we should take over next year. when we were done we went back to the riviera.
at the riv we played two games of pingpong. i must admit that i thought of julie and dt, and totally getting my trash kicked by people lik tim and red head ben. it was great in that sense. i was a little off my game in the beginning, so i lost the first game, but i came back strong and won the second game. yes!!
after that we gathered together in a group of 25-30 people so we could go to the tumbling gym between provo and springville. it was lots of fun there. i jumped into the foam pit a couple of times, and jumped around on the trampoline without injuring my self. i couldn't jump from the trampoline to the foam pit though, that was just asking too much from me. this was the first time that i've been around a trampoline in 4 or 5 years, and to have made it that far without getting hurt, i thought, was pushing my luck.
after that we went back to his apartment and played rock band for maybe half an hour, and then we decided to go to ihop. it was around 1 in the morning now, and so we went to ihop until around 3 in the morning, and then i finally made it home. it was way fun and i enjoyed it.
when i got home bre, one of my roomies, tells me that she and john, an old fhe dad, are engaged. i admit that i screamed YES many times and hopped around in a circle shouting it. it was great.
so, all in all, i would say that it was a pretty full weekend. but now we're back to the school week. nothing really happened today. i wish that i could have slept in but i didn't have the time to in the morning so i've been up for a long period of time. i'm excited to go home and see the roomies, and to chill and think of nothing for a while.
my goals for this week are to start working on my mad guitar skills so i can get better and better. i also plan on working on drumming. it should be fun. sweet! peace out kids.
wait- i forgot the most awkward moment of the weekend. it was linger longer last night and was sitting on the couch by myself, because i just like to chill, and feeling maybe a little anti social when this guy named lowell comes up and sits next to me. we talked for a short amount of time, and we ran out of things to talk about so it got awkward really fast. i couldn't leave, but he wouldn't leave so i was just sitting there listening to him talk about the picture on the wall when i noticed that a lot of people in the room were looking and pointing at me. i felt way uncomfortable, but i just sat there and tried to make relevant comments to him.
after he was gone and i was sitting and talking with mark, bryan, and bryce(huge group of guys, i know, but all of them are taken) someone came over and explained what all the staring was about. they made the comment that i looked uncomfortable and was looking for an escape earlier. i said you were right! we all had a good laugh about it. so now, that's the end, and peace out for reals this time! shout out to jack and jett!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
grocieries!!! mm-hmm!!
so after work today i plan on going and getting food so i can eat, and be happy and full. YAY!!
there wasn't anything too exciting today. i had a quiz today in spanish class, and it was really easy, so no complaining there. the funny thing is that my spanish teacher is romanian. talk about interesting.
i've tried to see what university band i'm in but fred hasn't posted them yet, so that's a bummer. i really want to be in the one that's not at the stadium. i went to the stadium all last semester, and i'm all funned out going there.
sometimes my focus level is just down. i try hard, and usually everything is okay, but sometimes my add gets the better of me. dangit! a good example of this is this blog. it's full of random stuff that doesn't even make sense half the time.
still though, the main thought on my mind is: FOOD...FOOD...FOOD...HOME...EATING...FOOD!!!!
there wasn't anything too exciting today. i had a quiz today in spanish class, and it was really easy, so no complaining there. the funny thing is that my spanish teacher is romanian. talk about interesting.
i've tried to see what university band i'm in but fred hasn't posted them yet, so that's a bummer. i really want to be in the one that's not at the stadium. i went to the stadium all last semester, and i'm all funned out going there.
sometimes my focus level is just down. i try hard, and usually everything is okay, but sometimes my add gets the better of me. dangit! a good example of this is this blog. it's full of random stuff that doesn't even make sense half the time.
still though, the main thought on my mind is: FOOD...FOOD...FOOD...HOME...EATING...FOOD!!!!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
sometimes... i just want to punch him!!!
so i got to hang out with joe and graham a lot last semester, and wasn't really planning on seeing either of them at all this semester. i was at work yesterday and i got this call from joe and he's like, come and hang out with me after your done with work. so i did.
lets see... i would definitely say that there are issues with joe. i think i kinda missed out on a great opportunity there, but oh well. over the winter break joe got engaged to his girlfriend. that's fine with me, i accept the fact that i didn't act when i should have, but there are some things that joe does that definitely deserve a punching.
examples: when we were going down to vegas, joe would share his blankets and pillows with me on the bus ride and then he would snuggle next to me. lets get real: the snuggling was probably for heat conservation because it got down to 40 degrees on that bus... so cold!! i'm grateful for the blanket, but i don't know, i guess that it just irks me.
we were talking about something, i can't really remember what, but he told me that i was awesome and so cool, and that i was a great best friend and that i totally understood everything that's going on with him and his girlfriend. and then he was like, you get that all the time, i'm sure that you do. i guess that it just kind of sucked because it reminded me of being a fallback, and i don't want to be that anymore.
last night, we were hanging out right, and i was looking at a paper, and he scooted closer so that he could read to. he even put his arm around me. yeah. that kind of made me feel like trash... and feel like punching him. suck!!
so if i could, i would give up joe, but he's one of my best friends, and he is a great friend. i just wish that he would stop having these lapses in memory and remember that he has a girlfriend, and that i'm a girl too!
lets see... i would definitely say that there are issues with joe. i think i kinda missed out on a great opportunity there, but oh well. over the winter break joe got engaged to his girlfriend. that's fine with me, i accept the fact that i didn't act when i should have, but there are some things that joe does that definitely deserve a punching.
examples: when we were going down to vegas, joe would share his blankets and pillows with me on the bus ride and then he would snuggle next to me. lets get real: the snuggling was probably for heat conservation because it got down to 40 degrees on that bus... so cold!! i'm grateful for the blanket, but i don't know, i guess that it just irks me.
we were talking about something, i can't really remember what, but he told me that i was awesome and so cool, and that i was a great best friend and that i totally understood everything that's going on with him and his girlfriend. and then he was like, you get that all the time, i'm sure that you do. i guess that it just kind of sucked because it reminded me of being a fallback, and i don't want to be that anymore.
last night, we were hanging out right, and i was looking at a paper, and he scooted closer so that he could read to. he even put his arm around me. yeah. that kind of made me feel like trash... and feel like punching him. suck!!
so if i could, i would give up joe, but he's one of my best friends, and he is a great friend. i just wish that he would stop having these lapses in memory and remember that he has a girlfriend, and that i'm a girl too!
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