new job!!!!!!

this is going to be just random thoughts and they will probably be only one sentence long... so here we go!
so today i start a new job in the english composition office. so far it seems pretty chill, and i'm excited.
last night i went ice skating and that was really cool, i wish that i was better at it, so maybe i should do this more often.
um, yeah, the poet is in a relationship and it's not with me. suck!
the school year is almost over and i haven't taken over the world yet... so many things to do, so little time.
and i think that tops it for random thoughts of the day. yay! peace out guys.

nasty.....

i was reading the post of yesterday, and i realized just how crazy it sounded. it was like i didn't read it before i posted it. hopefully today will be a wee bit better.
so some things happened today, but other things were odd i guess is the word. i didn't have spanish class because i had two spanish midterms today. i had to take the oral exam and then the written exam. the oral exam was pretty much rockin'. i'm not saying that i would do it again right now if i could, but that it went better than i thought that it would. then i took the written exam at five thirty. i was really tired and didn't really care anymore. two midterms in one day isn't hard, it's just that i wasn't expecting it during the middle of the semester. the most finals that i've ever taken in one day is i think four. yeah, in the middle of test number three that's when you stop caring.
so i was originally supposed to take the written exam at eight, but i wanted to see the poet tonight so i took the test early. he was pretty much amazing. we talked about different classes that we are taking, have already taken, or have to take all over again. there were good laughs and i can't wait to talk to him more. i like to make him laugh. i like to make people laugh in general just because it makes me happy.
yeah the shoutout of the day goes to elizabeth, who i will refer to as jackson in this blog. we were getting ready to go to fhe tonight and we we're putting on smell good stuff, and so i was spraying some and she turned around while she was talking and got a whole mouthfull. i started to laugh then, which made me inhale the fumes, and needless to say, it does not taste as good as it smells.
well foolios, i gotta go, but i will post again tomorrow. hurrah!!!!!

The new world of college

so i admit that it has been a long time since i last posted anything. i would have kept up writing during the summer but i felt like death in the end so i stopped writing and started sleeping. while at times it was great that i was at work, i felt the pain of the situation and the fact that i hadn't been able to see my mom or participate in my family.
some of the things that kept me alive was the fact that at my day job they let me drive the buses. it was fun and i liked it a lot and it kept my happy in all of surrounding badness. the other thing that kept me alive were the fact that i had drumline to come back to, i could see my mom again at the end of the month of august when i went back out to utah, and the other thing that kept me alive was the hope that this year would blow away all other years. i think that so far this year has been going very well.
i came back out here to provo, and so far i've enjoyed it thoroughly. it has been pretty successfull, and i also think that it relieves the stress on my parents when i leave. i've gone on more dates this year than i went on my freshmen and sophomore year combined. it's been busy; i've had drumline to suck away most of my time, searching for a man, and helping my friends and laughing at myself when i make ridiculous mistakes.
one of my favorite classes so far is my computer and humanities class. it's a lot of fun and i design web pages.
as of right now life could be better. i slept a lot this weekend, and the fact that i don't like is i think that i could sleep more. it was a restfull sleep.
my favorite adventure of the weekend was halloween. i went to this party, and i'm not really the partying kind of person. one of my roomates and i decided to leave and this other kid was there and he went and collected everyone else that wanted to leave too. in this group is a guy that i could be searching for. we shall call him the poet. he's in an english class with me and he's in my ward. he's all around charming and funny. he decided to walk home with us and he was dressed like this uber nerd. it was great! he was walking ahead of me and my roomies and one of the roomies came up with the plan that roomie one and i should go up to the poet and link our arms together. we we're going to do this and then he surprised us because he thought we were going to kick him. we finally were able to accomplish our goal, and i said something to the affect of i bet that's never happened to a math nerd, and the poet said, you're right. we then continued walking until we had almost reached home and then i needed a drink of my "rum" because i was thirsty.
later that night the poet came to visit because he thought that our apartment was going to go on an adventure. we weren't though, so unfortunately he left.
it was after church today and a roomie came up and asked me if there was anything going between me and the poet. i said that as far as i knew there was nothing and that he had a different love interest. it's true, unfortunately i think that he does. as for now though, i think that i have to go to ward prayer so i can see the poet. shout out to the flanagans and this is for cari dahl because she thinks that my blog is dead, but i can say that i'm about to come alive!! get ready to share this adventure...

my favorite time of days.

i have maybe three favorite times a day. the first time that's my favorite is seeing the sunset. i don't really see it, but it lets me know that the night is almost over, and that i can go home in a couple of hours. today the sunset turned the sky reddish pink. it doesn't normally do that. it usually is just the blue purple pink and gold, but today it was just the reddish pink.
my second favorite part of the day is when i walk home. some nights when i walk home i see the lightning in the sky. it lights up the world with awesome lightning strikes and so on. then i remember that i'm standing next to a metal building and should probably start walking home. other nights, like tonight, the sky is lit up with the stars. while it's not the same as living in the country it is a close second. when i walk home i find the different constillations and look at how bright they are. it reminds me of things that i like, and it keeps me going when i can't feel anything anymore. it reminds me of what a real vacation is, and how i need one of those. i'll get that vacation when i go back to school. i know that school is school and sometimes it sucks, but it's better than how i live now.
my third favorite thing of the day is probably logging onto facebook and writing on my blog so early in the morning. i hope that you guys are excited when you see that i've posted on my blog, and i enjoy the messages that friends send me on facebook.
it's kind of sad that i only have three favorite things per day. i know that they aren't much, but they matter to me. as of now, i can't really think or feel anymore, so i think it's time for bed. good night!

maybe it's time for me to get a better duty!

yeah, i just got home from work. it was a long night, and i think that it was full of many discoveries that inspire me to be like nacho and to find a different job.
these discoveries are related based on the fact that it deals with the same issue. while at work i have three shadows. i have my regular shadow, that's normal, i expect it to be there.
shadow #1: this shadow is 200+ pounds, and not all muscle. whenever i have to work with codename "mountain man" i get to hear him talk about ridiculous things. he invited me to go motorcycle riding with him this weekend. i graciously declined that opportunity. whenever i have to work with him i hope that i'm upwind, because there is a stench that comes from him. it's not a smell, it's a stench. everybody at work has a smell because of the gross gloves that we have to wear, but there is something more to mountain man. in general i find him to be a nice guy except that his whole life revolves around banging the next chick and riding his motorcycle.
shadow #2: this shadow may not be 200+ pounds but he is a real handful. codename "D-man" is 19 and has issues. i was working with glue today, and i got some strands of glue caught on my pants. i was in the process of pulling them off when he asked if he could help. yeah. . . about that. . .i'm thinking it's a no go. nice kid, but he does believe in God, and he doesn't believe in God. that issue will have to be saved for another night.
i just woke up my grandpa, i got to go to bed or something like it. i love you all and peace out.

the truth about the summertime this year around

so i think that the first thing that i'll cover in this blog is probably the floods. i don't think that they were as bad as the media would like you to think. while it was bad enough that i had to drive 45 minutes to get to a town that is only 15 minutes away, i think that it could have been a lot worse. it still was pretty bad. one of the main roads into albion had so much water flowing over it that the water tore the road away in parts. it wasn't just an inch or two. i was going to ride my bike through it but when the water was half way up the bike and i was only a third of the way through i decided to turn around. it was three to five feet deep across that road. suck! the affect that it has on the economy could be huge. corn production has gone down because most farmers didn't have time to plant before the floods, and those that did had there seeds washed away in some parts. i think to find out how much damage the floods caused will have to wait until we see the yields in the fall.
so the second thing of bad news. i found out today that production is so slow at the factory that if we don't get any new orders in there will be layoffs. they will start with the temps, so a lot of the day crew will go home. then they're goingt to start with the night shift part timers. it goes in order of whosever been there the shortest amount of time. oh yeah, that would be ME! that really sucks. if i can't detassel this year i need this job. i need it to last until around the first week of august. it's only going to be the second week of july and they are talking about layoffs. that's what you would call bad luck.
so for one of the last truths about summer in this post i turn to family. i have to admit that when i first came home i thought that things were going well in my family. they all seemed happy and there for each other and so on. one night i was getting ready for bed, and my mother and father were too so i was talking to them, and i found an old folder of mine. it wasn't full of my stuff though, it had been emptied and turned into a journal of sorts by my mother. i started reading it and i realized right away that i shouldn't, so i set it down and let it slide. it was a few days later that i went back to it, because i had to know what it was about. i had my assumptions, but i wanted to know if i was right or wrong. i was partially right, but my timing was off.
my mother still hasn't forgiven my dad completely for what happened last summer. i was reading the journal entry, and she was talking about leaving and not ever coming back. i remember when she left before, and it wasn't a happy time. this note was written in february. i felt every stab of sadness as she wrote about leaving and never looking or coming back. she wouldn't just be leaving my dad, she would be leaving my family.
it was sunday morning, and i decided there was no time like the present to confront my mother about the journal. i asked her how things were going. she started to cry, and said that she was concerned for me, she didn't want me to make the same mistake in choosing a complacent husband. the fact that she thinks part of it was a mistake was a stab yet again. i then asked if they had gotten better than last summer. she was silent for a time, and i could see that they hadn't. she then said that they hadn't gotten worse.
i don't think that anyone else in my family knows. my brothers are to busy fighting with each other at times to notice anything else, and my sisters don't live here. although at times i wish i could be elsewhere, i know that i need to be here. i can't just leave them and hope for the best, i will leave them in august, but for now, they need me. i'm not sure how, or why, but i need to be here.
to end on a happier note, i just got home, and in the fridge there was koolaid. it's very tasty, and my favorite drawer is still loaded with candy. peace out childrens!

my new favorite drawer!

so i have to admit that the last couple of weeks have been pretty rocky. i knew what i was in for when i came home. i was home for the grand total of 40 hours and then i decided it was time to leave. that's when i headed for wichita to see my sister and her baby boy. it was the first time that i had ever seen the baby, and it was the first time that i had seen my sister in a year. while it was great to see them, my anxiety over finding a job had reached a breaking point. i knew that i had to come back to iowa to get a job.
there are two jobs here that i hate, but i know that i have to do them. i just have to have a goal in mind. i do these jobs because i have to pay for school, and because school and friends are important to me, and to accomplish school and to see my friends i have to work these two crappy jobs.
so i've been working in the factory for one month and one week. it's been kind of stressful because tom, the manager is really cranky sometimes, and it's always so hard to tell if he's in a good mood or not. i usually just shut up and do the work, but with him breathing down my neck i feel that i can never do the work fast enough to make him happy. so to make him happy i talk about three things: music(more specifically 80's music), politics, and morals. yeah, that's about all that i can do to help tom. when we talk about morals mostly he complains about us complaining about life. so now i'm pretty sure that i could blackmail anyone at the factory, only i decide just to listen.
my other job hasn't started yet, and due to the floods of this year, i don't really know when it will. i work in the cornfields, and i'm personally hoping that it starts the last two week in july. yesterday was the last day that farmers could plant their crops and not have a total loss. they really should be able to plant, but insurance companies are being the real idiots here. they could probably plant all this week, but the insurance companies say no, so it's thanks to them that we're gonna be short this year. like i said i haven't started yet, but i have been in an intense game of phone tag with my boss. we've both called each other twice, but neither of us has talked to the other. Yay! great fun! hopefully i can talk chad up a couple more dollars. that would be nice.
so i'm sure that you are wondering about the title of this blog and it's coming right now. my grandpa is visiting right now, and we hid all these treats in a drawer in the kitchen. i didn't think that he would actually make it out here because he could probably die at any time. he has prostate cancer, and the treatments stopped working. he used to have to go to chemo every week, but when it stopped working, we took him off. one of the last things that he wanted to do was to come out here and see my family. i've never been so happy so see him. it really means a lot to me that he want to come. anyways . . . the drawer. i happened to stumble upon this drawer early today. when i say today i mean yesterday around noon. i wish that you could have seen my face as i looked into this drawer. it's full of little chocolate bars and reeses peanut butter cups. i was pleasantly pleased to see this, and made two chocolate bars part of my breakfast. today was a hard day at work, and when i came home i opened up that drawer, and saw that it was full of chocolate still, i was happy yet again. point one for the home front. SWANK!
yeah, i'm really mixed up on my days. my days start around 11 am and go to 5 am. i sleep from 5 to 11, and i take a nap around 2. so when you read this, think of my time and maybe it will be less confusing. if not oh well, better luck next time. peace out kids! it's 4:30 am!